Man, I feel this deep. When I’m disconnected from God…even if I’m still praying, still reading, still showing up, I feel it. I feel the weight, the strain, the emptiness that nothing else can fill. I can laugh, have a good day, handle my business, and still…there’s a tug in my spirit. A pull that says, “You’re running on fumes.”
Because let’s be real..what I put in, is what I get out. When I barely give God my time, when my prayers are cute and routine instead of raw and surrendered, when I skim through the Word but don’t let it read me, I’m the one who suffers. But it’s not just me. My marriage feels it. My parenting feels it. My kids feel it. My brothers feel it. Because when I’m disconnected from God, I’m too wrapped up in myself.
And this is where I have to ask myself: What do I truly want? Why do I keep dancing around this?
Because this isn’t about checking off religious boxes or doing my “Christian duties.” That kind of surface-level pursuit doesn’t change anything. This is about true devotion. A real, deep, life-consuming desire to draw near to God…not out of obligation, but out of honor and love for my Father. To surrender fully. To let Him pour into me so freely that I actually live it out.
Because anything less than that? When I try to do this on my own? That’s exactly what it is, I’m on my own. And when I’m on my own, I suffer. And everyone around me suffers.
THE WAKE-UP CALL
God doesn’t force Himself on me. He’s waiting. Waiting for me to stop playing, to stop trying to handle things in my own strength, to stop throwing up half hearted prayers and calling it a pursuit.
James 4:8 says, “Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.” That’s a promise. But it starts with me.
So today, I’m done with surface level connection. I’m done with distractions stealing my devotion. I’m done with weak prayers when I need His fire burning in me.
THE CHALLENGE
Are we really giving God our full heart? Are we really pressing in, or are we just checking in? Are we seeking Him first, or fitting Him in when it’s convenient?
It’s time to get real. Time to fight for full connection. Because when we truly seek Him…not just with words, but with our whole lives…He fills us, leads us, strengthens us, and satisfies us like nothing else can.
I don’t want to just go through the motions. I want more of Him.
PRAYER:
Father, forgive me for giving You less than my whole heart. I don’t want to just say I love You, I want to live fully connected to You. I need You. I’m tired of running on empty. I lay down my distractions, my excuses, my half hearted pursuit. Fill me with Your presence, renew my spirit, and pull me deeper into You. I don’t just want a good day, I want a life consumed by You. In Jesus’ name, amen.